Some thoughts

I am like a broken compass, its that feeling where u are kinda stuck at a junction, and everywhere seems to be the right way. So which way shd I go?

Perhaps I'm running too fast in my life. Chasing over things that I may not able to handle it yet. Its no use realizing your fast pace when u have already neglected the beautiful things that have always been around. Went AMK Hub to shop around after sch. Shoppers were waiting patiently their turn to board a cab; likewise cabs were patiently moving forward to pick up their passengers. It reminded me that sometimes, there are things that I can't rush them to happen. Patiently, given time, things will fall into their own right places.

I believe, given time, I shall be boarding a cab to a journey I will enjoy.

I shall indulge myself with ice creams after the exams.
Miss Haato n Swensens, aww...

Dad's Birthday Celebration

just came back from dinner,

so Dad's turning 60 next week,
so we had a meal as a family to celebrate his bday early instead of next sat.
It was our first attempt at Pow Sing（报喜）Restaurant at Serangoon Garden Way.
Its that restaurant featured for the best chicken rice on some food hunt programme a couple of yrs ago...
4 dishes + 1 soup , it came up to 80 plus dollars,
Chicken was very tender, of cos it has to be the best, its the 主角
But my fav was the pork ribs, which was rather crispy, had that unique sauce :)

It was my treat, lol, my very first dinner treat to my family :)
Tho a simple dinner,
but wats more impt is having the whole family sit down together and enjoy a meal

Its a hot day

I just checked my MSN, and it is freaking 34 degrees now!! Desert life lol

Studying alone in EA now, taking a break...

So today went to ntu to eat breakfast :) tho I told kl that I will be gg in Dec. It was a random move, and I took a stroll around the engine building n realized they actually have rooms that are named "Examination Room", its like only opened for this purpose. Yup, and students were waiting outside still reading their notes, having the nervous look, its the same scenario over here. And their study room realli look like an office, all got separate cubicles one. Anws I think I am now more familiar with the roads over there, dun have to find street directory to hunt for NIE and Engine blk le. Hopefully I can watch some musical play/concert at ntu soon, but then I wun know unless someone informs me, haha. I havent been to their urms "UCC", its quite nicely decorated on the outside tho.

Angela told me she is a procrastinator, I think I am a bigger one. I am in the 'crawling' stage when it comes to studying for my MA, so inefficient lehz, havnt started on my TE *fainting*

Recently, I realized I am very nagging, nobody told me that but I just felt that way, talk and talk over the same issue again and again. Could somebody just tell me to shut up?

I zip myself :x
Tightly :xx

Letting go isn't about giving up. It's about accepting that there are things that cannot be....

Its late at night

yup,
trying to fill up 4 pages of cheat sheet for MA exam. Almost done :)
Its time-consuming actually, but then its the last lapse before everything is over, so might as well give it my best shot.
Hopefully my efforts will reap in the As....
Mid term didnt do well, low 60s, so i ain't expecting much.

This module is definitely not for the weak-hearted, oh well..
Racing to the pitstop!

Just realized that "Poker King" has been taken out from the cinemas :(
so surprisingly fast.
Feeling hungry now, missing NTU Palette Breakfast Set C
:p

Cravings

For some unknown reasons, suddenly having a craving for Fish n Co. My appetite is realli weird, and I got a feeling ttsh has given up on me. Currently feeding on Remeron, but I wanna be freed from tat asap.

Exams are near, yet I am watching Korean drama. Done with epi 14 of You're Beautiful. Somehow the plot reminds me of some ch8 TV drama tat was aired donkey years ago, can't remember the title. Fell in love with the OST, the theme song esp and the song that was played in epi 1, "I will promise you" something something....lol. Anws this drama brings back some memories, yup, somehow it does....I watched le, so anyway, jus 2 more episodes to the end.

Had coffee with meiling today. Everyone is mugging so hard, so I guess we should just take a short break once in a while to chit chat. Or perhaps I just needed someone to talk to. Random..

Lent my old labby to Jerry who has a Dreamweaver assignment to be submitted on Thurs and his own labby is under servicing. Went for a short walk at Punggol Park after meeting him. Felt refreshed tho a lil' tired.

I wonder...
Why am I asking the same qn everyday when I already know your answer?

好歌推荐： 09 年 11 月

推荐歌曲：画沙

歌手姓名：袁詠琳 / 周杰伦

专辑名称：同名专辑Cindy

19岁的她，诞生了第一张个人全创作专辑。

这次找来师兄周杰伦， 在他跨刀声援下，推出第一首单曲《画沙》。由袁詠琳创作，这首融合了小提琴，大提琴和钢琴的古典轻快R&B 曲风的对唱歌曲，是周董第一次唱他人创作的合唱情歌。

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑
用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来绝不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿
因为我爱你呀

End of Reading Week

It just rained again, making the day seem so dull -_-
MisterLyon is sleepy Zzzz....
So I stayed at home today, woke up late, decided nt to go school
Trying to go through Calculus again and again, tho some concepts seem weird to me.
And no friends to discuss and revise with me :(
So have to do everything myself.
Hope can finish calculus today, stats by weekends, then nx week start on ese TE.

Boring day...lalala

Sometimes I wonder....

Sometimes I like to question myself if this is the life that I want, when there are so much uncertainities and unpredictability of the outcome emerging from my actions. The situation seems to be much more complicated than what I have always thought it would be. Hopes are just lil' dreams, and when they do come true in reality, I would very much be contented. If they do not, I guess its just fate, something we can't really take control of.

I often ask myself if I am doing the right thing. I ponder over my actions recently and wonder if I am trying to force something out of nowhere. Do anyone really understand what I want to achieve? Are my efforts going down the drain? Perhaps I should just stop and give up. But then again, I know I ain't that kind of person who will throw in the towel so easily.

I can't do a U-turn, can I? Should I? But I don't want to. It could be too late for me, and I am afraid that I would regret in the future. Perhaps I am asking too much, worrying too much about things that do not actually happen. I envy my friends very often, they seem to be very satisfied and happy with their own life. I guess it shouldnt very difficult to achieve that.

-是多么不容易才默默放手

Late at night

To my HORROR!
My broadband went haywire, so I am tapping on somebody else's wireless, shhh....
dunnoe what happened tho :(
later 8am will call and SOS lol

Slept at 710pm, woke up at 11pm. Hence, I am now very awake haha

Med appt later with Dr Alice. Not sure what I will tell her.
Have been constantly changing appt dates due to sch work, but I guess I shd go.

Watched AR today, 4 teams left, three weeks more to finale.
Support Meghan and Cheyne. Four #1 finishes already!
Hate Ericka's impatience and her constant screaming on Bryan.
Flight Time & Big Easy always win in a foot race, if they get into top 3, most likely they might win.
Sam & Dan, well, physical strong, mentally hmm...dunnoe abt that. They kept screaming at each other during the Roadblock switchback in Sweden.

My top 3 prediction:
Meghan & Cheyne (I just want them to win!)
Flight Time & Big Easy (Sometimes its fun to see tall giants walking ard lol)
Bryan & Erika (They are the weakest so far, so pls enter to make up the numbers lol)

Next week to Prague, which AR will span for 2 weeks at this location. So one of these 2 epi will be a non-elimination worz :p

Reading week

Woke up at 430 today, didnt sleep much tho, and realized I can't sleep further, so decided to blog :p

Sending my Grandma off to HK later in the morning before gg sch to mug.

I was slacking the whole weekend. Confession! *spank myself*

Returned back to Celebral Palsy Centre on sat to help out, wanted to give myself a break for one day, but actually I do miss my friends over there. Felt rather guilty for being absent for 11 mths and they actually went to Hongkong in Aug for their competition, then visited Disneyland, wah cool!

There are more patients this time round, sad :(
but then again its not up to them to choose this path. So they are rather shorthanded for volunteers for this period and probably I will be gg there more often. Somehow I have forgotten the incident tat happened last Dec, its getting rather insignificant to me, its a good thing tat I don't really think much of it these days, really.

So went bowling with Jerry at our lao di fang. If I had known he had PE classes the day before, I wouldnt drag him over there. Could tell how tired his hands were from the way he threw the balls. Played only 1 game eventually and we went Ya Kun for coffee and to 谈心事. Ya, got something out of my chest finally, but the prob is still unsolved :(
But anws THANKS to my bro for providing the listening ear.

Perhaps I need to lock myself up in my own room for 1 week, don't need 七七四十九天, I still need to take exams hor! No laptop = no MSN + no facebook, just that stack of NOTES, argghh! Oh ya, not forgetting my coffee doses and my iPod :D

MisterLyon needs to enter a new dimension, so where is it?

Timer begins:
15 days to 1st paper,
16 days to last paper

My ME friends + meiy are having their modeling quiz (50%) today, so
Loads of LUCK to them!

Maybe

Maybe it was just my selfish thought
Maybe it was just an unappreciated gesture
Maybe it was just my wishful thinking

Maybe...many maybes....

Silence hurts, it really does
Holding back the tears, not for long

FYP day

Doin my fyp today, am in lab now waiting for my results.
its gonna be a long day -_-
hopefully it will end by 7pm, crossing my fingers and toes :p
Discovered some fresh results a couple of wks ago, but then when I redid the expt again, there was nothing to be seen on my agar. Sianz, so its 一场欢喜一场空.
And I think I am not a good agar maker. My soft agar broke into pieces before I even use them.
So so so fragile, haha, just like my heart, yups, sad.
Getting a bit uncomfortable and troubled recently, but Jerry was there for me, so I appreciate my bro beri beri much.

Okie, back to the point, so I am not a jelly person. Oh, feel like eating ice kacang now :)

Exams are coming, so is the stress!

沙沙的

满园的落叶任风吹
听出沙沙的谁
离开的声音急促的令人心碎
你一脸的无邪
却连笑都不给
诗句语带威胁
结局要怎么完美

满园的落叶任风吹
听出沙沙的谁
你的脚步声匆忙的那么零碎
我转过身背对
你远去的感觉
安静的为你
写下一首诗
再落泪

The best alternative

When things don't work out the way you want it to be,
its wise to change the approach method

FULL STOP

Poker Poker!

Its out finally! Woohoo! I wanna watch la :D

Design Project over!

Yay! DP is finally over. I have lost count of the number of nights that I actually slpt at 4am and waking up at 530am. Crazy biological clock of mine, but I don't really have a choice right?

Our presentation was okay, nicely done :) But we screwed up the Q&A. It seems tat Prof Chen actually pointed out certain concept that was wrong. Can't ans his questions, Prof Hu made things worse. And cx actually mentioned a process that we didnt do in our treatment train. But she said we did. -_- I guess Prof Hu is gonna read our biological treatment thoroughly liao. Sianz.

Kudos to all my team members. I have 4 ladies working with me, yet we don't have much conflict at all throughout these 12 weeks. Kosing is best when it comes down to technical details and she provide a good support for the team. Claudine is our 'designer', she drew a very nice treatment train which really impressed me. haha. Nice girl who will always ask me even in the wee hours if I need help. Huixian didnt do any calculations, was on the safe side, but she did well in the EIA report and was in charge of most of the theoretical stuff that needs to be included. CX has very concise ideas and was a capable assistant to Kosing.

Although we think we didnt do well in today's presentation, we have tried our best. So crossing fingers that can get a least a B. haha, A better lah, who doesnt want? 12 weeks of hard work lehz :p


My first cert from ESE. The girls deserve one too.

ESE welfare pack

This year's welfare pack given to ESE students is the best I have ever seen.
Not the quantity of the items given, but the effort that Siew Noi and her team put into each and every pack. *Thumbs Up*

Compact and nice =)
No more plastic bags..

Came home early after submitting DP report.
Didnt manage to eat anything for lunch, so decided to cook maggie mee myself since there was only 1 curry flavour left, my fav :D
Its fun to be able to spend some time in the kitchen alone, grab watever I can find in the fridge. It just felt as if I was still in the states.

Anws, felt really tired.

I realized tat I have fallen into the deep ‘hole’ once again
It wasn’t easy to escape one months ago, but fell again
The hole was deeper this time round;
I am trapped :(
Nowhere to return

Weekends...I am bored

Its a dragging weekend, one where most of my classmates will be preparing for the final phase of DP, compiling and making sure everything is alright. Massive changes have been done to my group's calculations, everything looks good, well at least to me. But I ain't sure if there is anything wrong tat we have not discovered. I am struggling with Mass Balance today, tats the most tricky part. Dunoe wat to do lehz. So keeping my fingers crossed. Submission is tmrw, presentation on Thurs. Then this module will be done, yippee :)

Havent been slping well these few days, feelin a bit emo and heaty :(

Went to watch the Subaru Impreza Challenge yesterday. 8th year already. *clap*
But yesterday was raining so heavily in the evening, then many pulled out, tian bu zuo mei.
Hope this year's winner can last 95 hrs. Its a $81k car, haha, the motivation.

SO yesterday was a downpour raining evening. A day where I decided to get myself a new laptop. I actually reformatted my Acer on Fri at $50. Then realized CD player down, tink the chip is corrupted. Then my office 2007 got locked. Cuz I not using licensed software.
Then need to rush DP, and there was this Compaq labby promotion that will end on 31 oct. The specifications are fine, can upgrade to Window 7 free. But I will go with Vista first.

So after buying labby, kinda broke, haha, so gonna save a lot more money in the coming days, cuz Dad's 60th Bday coming soon, and I havnt found a nice place for the family to dine.

Its a lazy sunday...Zzz...