Its the weekends again.
It was stay-home week for me (most of the time), under unpredictable circumstances but I guess I would be able to wonder out very soon.
Been slping at 5am everyday, which is v bad! Time to change to a healthier lifestyle.
Thought over a couple of issues, did housework, prepare tuition worksheets, jobhunt blah blah...
I am a pretty careless person, am not very good handling things made of glass.
My best record was during fyp. Broke a minimal amt alright, wun say the numbers here :x
Today I just started watching Apprentice S9, another fun and exciting fight! 2 eps down.
and this wk, I had a deeper and clearer understanding of what 'cancer' is. Its pretty scary actually. Sometimes heaven just wants to play with us.
Just like what she said, we are all living in a world of unknowns. I hate to agree, but its true.
Sighz.
Going boccia later, so I think I still have 3 hrs to sleep...or a lil' bit more.
Feel like catching a movie this weekends, last one I caught was The Proposal, that was...hmm..11 mths ago? $6.50 per movie ticket, haha, so seducing...Shall see how.
Good Night! Dreams sweet sweet :P
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Shoo the unhappiness
Time check: 4.02am
Surpised, shocked....I actually survived this week.
Sometimes I keep thinking if I am using every second of time remaining...wisely
In fact, I know I am just slacking.
Its been a rough week.
Had a troubled thurs night. Certain things are amazing yet unexplainable.
It kept me up the whole night, till abt 5, when I simply slept abt an hour before preparing to set off to KL's house. Calmed myself down, listen to AM Jam. Plan was to have some coffee before setting off to her ops. Even tho I was feeling down, I always feel it was my duty to be responsible to keep myself awake and have a clear mind if I have passengers in my car. Managed to open up and striked a conversation with her dad who was just sitting beside me. Nice chat. Then went school and home to have a nap before heading to orchard to see her again in the evening. She seems very weak, didnt had much of the porridge, maybe its the pain that none of us can feel. Spoke a few sentences. In fact, I felt really sad but I know I can't do much. Seems totally different. I guess she just needs more rest. Anws alr discharged this morning and I probably would take some time off to pay her a visit soon.
Met Kh for dinner which was pretty unplanned because I was tired and troubled abt other stuff. But did manage to take down 3 slices of pizzas from CPK. It did cheered me up a lil :) Then we went for drinks by the Singapore River and I asked for 2 mugs and had to stop. He thanked me for the night. But I think I shd be the one thanking him for keeping me company. Thanks Bro!
This morning, I didnt go for boccia, didnt go for Jerry's Bursary award ceremony(Sorry Bro!).
Rushed to tpy to get some pastries, to my horror, the shop actually closed.
so had to quickly find an alternative.
Prepared sliced watermelon for today, but....oh wells...
but I quite like the picnic. Its nice to see the lighted kites at nights flying carefreely in the sky.
Garden Festival at suntec, whole wk, but I didnt get to go in the end :(
Always like to see their Landscape & Fantasy gardens.
Jay Chou's concert this weekends.
Tried so many ways to win and get tickets. Didnt work out :(
Alrights...450 now. I think I will head back to sleep ba.
I feel like watching Inception soon...but....the stupid me might not even understand the story.
I feel like learning Hip Hop again....but....I doubt I will survive 3 classes due to my slow reaction time in dancing.
I feel like going back to the States, back to Mission Street, back to 235 Arroyo Seco, away from family and r/s problems, away from the words and accusations that u do not wish to hear at all.
I feel like playing badminton because its been a long while since I held a badminton racket.
I feel like going cycling at ecp and bowling at tpy....but....
I feel like letting go of certain things....yet....
I keep on editing this post. dunno why...and it's now...515 -_-'''
Sometimes its hard to believe that 1+1 does not always equal to 2
I feel so stupid doing silly things nowadays.
its just not me....
Surpised, shocked....I actually survived this week.
Sometimes I keep thinking if I am using every second of time remaining...wisely
In fact, I know I am just slacking.
Its been a rough week.
Had a troubled thurs night. Certain things are amazing yet unexplainable.
It kept me up the whole night, till abt 5, when I simply slept abt an hour before preparing to set off to KL's house. Calmed myself down, listen to AM Jam. Plan was to have some coffee before setting off to her ops. Even tho I was feeling down, I always feel it was my duty to be responsible to keep myself awake and have a clear mind if I have passengers in my car. Managed to open up and striked a conversation with her dad who was just sitting beside me. Nice chat. Then went school and home to have a nap before heading to orchard to see her again in the evening. She seems very weak, didnt had much of the porridge, maybe its the pain that none of us can feel. Spoke a few sentences. In fact, I felt really sad but I know I can't do much. Seems totally different. I guess she just needs more rest. Anws alr discharged this morning and I probably would take some time off to pay her a visit soon.
Met Kh for dinner which was pretty unplanned because I was tired and troubled abt other stuff. But did manage to take down 3 slices of pizzas from CPK. It did cheered me up a lil :) Then we went for drinks by the Singapore River and I asked for 2 mugs and had to stop. He thanked me for the night. But I think I shd be the one thanking him for keeping me company. Thanks Bro!
This morning, I didnt go for boccia, didnt go for Jerry's Bursary award ceremony(Sorry Bro!).
Rushed to tpy to get some pastries, to my horror, the shop actually closed.
so had to quickly find an alternative.
Prepared sliced watermelon for today, but....oh wells...
but I quite like the picnic. Its nice to see the lighted kites at nights flying carefreely in the sky.
Garden Festival at suntec, whole wk, but I didnt get to go in the end :(
Always like to see their Landscape & Fantasy gardens.
Jay Chou's concert this weekends.
Tried so many ways to win and get tickets. Didnt work out :(
Alrights...450 now. I think I will head back to sleep ba.
I feel like watching Inception soon...but....the stupid me might not even understand the story.
I feel like learning Hip Hop again....but....I doubt I will survive 3 classes due to my slow reaction time in dancing.
I feel like going back to the States, back to Mission Street, back to 235 Arroyo Seco, away from family and r/s problems, away from the words and accusations that u do not wish to hear at all.
I feel like playing badminton because its been a long while since I held a badminton racket.
I feel like going cycling at ecp and bowling at tpy....but....
I feel like letting go of certain things....yet....
I keep on editing this post. dunno why...and it's now...515 -_-'''
Sometimes its hard to believe that 1+1 does not always equal to 2
I feel so stupid doing silly things nowadays.
its just not me....
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Thoughts...
Couldn’t fall into slumberland yesterday night until 6. A couple of things on my mind for the past week and a lot of uncertainties lie behind them. Sometimes it is pretty scary when people tell u that the future is unpredictable. I guess we are just too busy to even bother what has yet to arrive.
KL mei is having her 3-hrs ops tomorrow early morning. She actually scheduled it 2 weeks earlier and I can totally understand. I always believe that it is better if u solve the problem at an early stage. Hers is totally different and safer from mine, at least I know hers is not the life-threatening kind and thus, she should not drag for too long before going for it. Everyone is afraid of ops as there is always a certain amt of risk involved. Hopefully, I pray, by this time tmrw when she comes out of the ops theater, everything will be fine and she would be able to live her usual carefree life. Thinking back, I have known her for more than 10 years, even before she stepped into xmss. I can still remember I first met her on IRC where she asked info abt the school, and then on, we kept in contact for pretty long. She calls me Uncle (so old lolx) and I treat her like my sister, more than just friends. Maybe our interests are quite similar and oh there is one thing haha, we both like Avril Lavigne and her punk look and her funky tunes. Then she went on to AJC and now she has one more year to go before grad in NTU. She is very independent, something which I can’t compare myself with her haha. Sometimes she tells me abt her troubles which I am really glad, though I am not really good with words or comforting a person, I guess the least I can do is be a listener and understand her problem. At this stage in her life, she is really lucky to have a supportive family and also to have found Adr whom I believe will always be there for her and take good care of her in future.
Hopefully everything goes well!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Breakfast Hunt
Left: Wah Yen Eating House, Blk 23 Sin Ming Road
Ordered the wrong type of bread actually. Wanted to have the Roti John Bread toast with butter and kaya. But this isnt too bad either. The cold creamy butter is pretty satisfying, at least to me.
They said the coffee is special, but I doubt so. Probably a few more tries bah!
Right: Seng Hong Coffeeshop, Blk 58 Lengkok Bahru
Steamed Lohti (bread)! Hardly see them around these days. Warm and soft with kaya and a small thin slice of butter. Sweet!
Commencement (3)
10 July 2010
I have never attended a prom night before in my life. Last year was part of org comm (not counted). So this was my very first which explains the ‘headache’ I had of finding a suitable attire for this event. Somehow I always think that Grad Dinner is a great way to end off graduation. Academy Awards was the theme! Opened up my wardrobe, chose a vest, white shirt, black pants, and end it off with a skinny tie and a hat. Frankly speaking, I don’t possess that fashion sense because I don’t really spend much time on my dress code whenever I go out. Anws, I did prepare a set of blazer and kept it in the car boot. Didn’t use it though haha.
11 July 2010
Stayed over with the juniors at Orchard Hotel till sunday.
we had like more than 10 pple squeezed in a room.
Nursed a mild gastric while watching world cup 3rd/4th place finish. Germany won!
3rd place haha, alright, better than 4th ok hehe...
So Meiy and I headed over to sch to attend the Sci Fac convo. Arrived there just in time. It was Raymond's graduation :) Congrats! Got to know him from JC, and together with kh, three of us were in the Harmonica Orchestra. His hands were full of flowers, bears, and also the BIG BIG photo album that Iza created. It was really nicely done and I felt rather inferior at the one I made...and I think next time when three of us hang out tgt, we shd take LOTS LOTS photos!
The only photo we took in JC was the Harmonica SYF full orchestra photo lolxx. We dun have that xi guan to take photos when we go out. but then we seldom hang out also, maybe like 3-4 times a year. haha...the busy school days are over. It is probably more difficult to meet up when we are working. But nevertheless, shd always try to keep in contact yeps.
After the convo, went out for lunch with Meiy and her St Nics gang at Marina sq. Reached home at 530pm. Quick dinner before falling into slumberland, ya, cuz I only slp for 15 mins on the nice comfortable sofa in the hotel room muhaha...
I have never attended a prom night before in my life. Last year was part of org comm (not counted). So this was my very first which explains the ‘headache’ I had of finding a suitable attire for this event. Somehow I always think that Grad Dinner is a great way to end off graduation. Academy Awards was the theme! Opened up my wardrobe, chose a vest, white shirt, black pants, and end it off with a skinny tie and a hat. Frankly speaking, I don’t possess that fashion sense because I don’t really spend much time on my dress code whenever I go out. Anws, I did prepare a set of blazer and kept it in the car boot. Didn’t use it though haha.
Day started out in the mid afternoon. Picked Meiy up, send her to J8 for make-up session (took 45 mins but make-up artist quite pro), then we headed for IKEA to get nice flowers for the grad dinner comm. Really thought of her! and I didnt know IKEA got such lobang haha. Fake flowers but a fresh colourful combination can easily appear if u just put a few stalks tgt. Bought 15 stalks, still not enough for the group cuz we really dunno whats the actual size of the comm also. And I almost wanted to cut a stalk to stick to my vest. Crazy idea but was aborted hoho.
The Gracious Angel holding the flowers :)
Venue was Rosewood@Orchard Hotel, just opposite the Forum, located at the pretty secluded corner in town. I really like the design of the lobby, and there are 4 different clocks of various countries around the world + the piano.
Pardon this photo, ermm..my camera not very good la. Lolx.
Was surprised to receive the Social Butterfly award cuz I already had somebody in mind who will definitely fit the description. Didnt prepare any thank-u speech, so was rather stumbled for words.
I love that polaroid photo lol :)
The graduated class of 2010 !
With the Welfare comm
The Grad Dinner Org Comm, THANK U!
It was a great success despite the low turnout and I can really feel the effort being put in by my juniors. Great company and nice food to end the day:) It couldn't get better than this!
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11 July 2010
Stayed over with the juniors at Orchard Hotel till sunday.
we had like more than 10 pple squeezed in a room.
Nursed a mild gastric while watching world cup 3rd/4th place finish. Germany won!
3rd place haha, alright, better than 4th ok hehe...
So Meiy and I headed over to sch to attend the Sci Fac convo. Arrived there just in time. It was Raymond's graduation :) Congrats! Got to know him from JC, and together with kh, three of us were in the Harmonica Orchestra. His hands were full of flowers, bears, and also the BIG BIG photo album that Iza created. It was really nicely done and I felt rather inferior at the one I made...and I think next time when three of us hang out tgt, we shd take LOTS LOTS photos!
The only photo we took in JC was the Harmonica SYF full orchestra photo lolxx. We dun have that xi guan to take photos when we go out. but then we seldom hang out also, maybe like 3-4 times a year. haha...the busy school days are over. It is probably more difficult to meet up when we are working. But nevertheless, shd always try to keep in contact yeps.
After the convo, went out for lunch with Meiy and her St Nics gang at Marina sq. Reached home at 530pm. Quick dinner before falling into slumberland, ya, cuz I only slp for 15 mins on the nice comfortable sofa in the hotel room muhaha...
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Song Recommendation of the Month: July 2010
Title: 우리 정말 사랑했어요 We Really Loved Each Other
Artiste: Navi Featuring K.Will
She is not really recognised or that famous yet, but I must say she is doing pretty well now. A lady whom I thought needs more attention from the media cuz she’s got real talent here!! She started out 2 years ago, pairing up with Tablo and released her very first single I Luv U. Since then, she has been joining the Korean Talent show Star King and even did a cover for few famous songs such as Super Junior’s Sorry Sorry and 2PM’s Again and Again.
Maybe a little underrated when she first appeared but not anymore. This time collaborating with South Korean Ballad singer Kim Hyung-Soo, better known by his stage name K.Will. A dancer, composer, actor, vocal guide ….and lots more…a really talented guy! And two vocally talented korean singers dueting together, haha, the result is a harmonious ballad depicting a story about how each the woman and man loved, although in different ways and realising that what they had was really something significant.
Who would have known a college student working as a singer at a jazz club would have such success now! Haha, perhaps a gem found by Composer Lee Hyun-seung.
Anws, I really like the music video for this song.
p.s. I feel that she is like a Korean-Rihanna, at least her singing style reminds me of Rihanna hoho :p
Btw, I give this song 4.1 out of 5 leaves....
Sunday, July 18, 2010
The Spoken Word
Its 2am -_- Super uber awake and sober.
I have a tuition class later at a super early timing, not sure if I can wake up in time for that. sighz.
For the past few days.....It seems like everything is changing.
A couple of bad news. I am still hanging on...
Everything happens for a reason, thats what they always say.
Does that mean that we have to accept it silently? Do we even have a chance to voice out?
The things I encounter, the feelings I have for others, they continuously appear in my life.
At some occasions, I really want to be angry, yet I can't do anything about it.
I ain't a person who likes to force things to be the way they ain't to be.
As I grow up, I realise the importance of the spoken word.
Its a double-edge sword -- it can give life and it can take away one's every hope.
Yet, the very absence of words can make or break someone else.
Words, no doubt, is a form of assurance.
Not to even mention, those small little actions and surprises which will warm your heart.
I have a tuition class later at a super early timing, not sure if I can wake up in time for that. sighz.
For the past few days.....It seems like everything is changing.
A couple of bad news. I am still hanging on...
Everything happens for a reason, thats what they always say.
Does that mean that we have to accept it silently? Do we even have a chance to voice out?
The things I encounter, the feelings I have for others, they continuously appear in my life.
At some occasions, I really want to be angry, yet I can't do anything about it.
I ain't a person who likes to force things to be the way they ain't to be.
As I grow up, I realise the importance of the spoken word.
Its a double-edge sword -- it can give life and it can take away one's every hope.
Yet, the very absence of words can make or break someone else.
Words, no doubt, is a form of assurance.
Not to even mention, those small little actions and surprises which will warm your heart.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Commencement (2)
7 July 2010
Its convocation for the EE graduates. Woke up pretty early, intending to attend the convo and give my bro a surprise. Perhaps he already knew I was gg haha. Anws it was a huge cohort, waited pretty long before they came out. Very shamelessly volunteered to be kh's photographer, ...he needed one anyway. And oh his excited mum was using the traditional camera, the film kind, tat brought back lots of memories.
Its convocation for the EE graduates. Woke up pretty early, intending to attend the convo and give my bro a surprise. Perhaps he already knew I was gg haha. Anws it was a huge cohort, waited pretty long before they came out. Very shamelessly volunteered to be kh's photographer, ...he needed one anyway. And oh his excited mum was using the traditional camera, the film kind, tat brought back lots of memories.
Kian heng, with his grad lion named 'Lionus'
Mingzhi, my JC classmate
The NUS cookie was nice and crunchy too!
Had a chance to grab some before the buffet starts lol
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8 July 2010
Business Convo!Hmm..come to think of it, Deph is the only business friend I knew and is somebody I know Meiy cared a lot for. so Meiy and I went early to get sunflowers for her, the initial 1 stalk plan evolved into a bouquet. But most impt, can tell that Deph really likes it :) Didnt expect that we could get extra tics to enter the Auditorium, feels really nice to sit at the 2nd level monitoring everything from above. Was also her photographer for the day. Must admit my skills so-so only, but I am rather impressed by my camera which never disappoints me.
With Deph and Meiy :)
My face looked like charcoal lol. The sun's fault!
I was asked to hold the bear cuz it was the most MAN-ly item out of the 3.
Following her convo, Deph went for her grad dinner while Meiy and I made our way to cck to attend Puay Bing's 21st bday surprise. Its at Northvale Condo. Didnt explore the place much but the swimming pool was huge. And I realized there are more residents swimming at night, a great way to relax!
Anyway, her bday cake was in the shape of a trumpet! Damn cool! Pb is in the band orchestra, and her main instrument was trumpet, yeps. Remind me of those jc harmonica days which I really miss.
The EA Study Bench Gang 
After the party, Meiy and I went to town to pick Deph up and we went amk for supper. haha, the night was still young. Suppose to be heading home after that, but Deph suggested we visit the ulu ulu Lower Seletar Reservoir near her house. I think they are still developing this area to link to the TPE in the near future. We walked around and started playing around with the camera, take jump shots etc. Then we felt sianz and decided to play sparklers!! LOL...the plan was to light those sparklers during pb's bday but it wasnt carried out. So yeps, brought already...不玩白不玩！
Reached home at 230am.Everyone was asleep....I sneaked into my room, just like a thief haha！
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Cooped
Mum went to Genting yesterday, so the house is practically empty until friday.
I was repeatedly asked to go, but in the end I decided not to.
I havnt been to enough places in spore yet. Am going to stay here and do what I want.
Tried to make cappuccino today, from scratch. It tasted awful :x
Something might be wrong with the milk temperature. darn..
Gave up unreluctantly. finished whatever is edible. lol
Tuition later.
LOVES Binomial theorem, HATE properties of circles...
so....Friday night going to Zouk.
Seriously, I m not really looking forward to.
A place which I told myself not to enter ever again.
Perhaps those familiar faces will reappear again.
Scolded my sis ytd night. Felt bad.
Didnt mean to. I'm sorry.
I was repeatedly asked to go, but in the end I decided not to.
I havnt been to enough places in spore yet. Am going to stay here and do what I want.
Tried to make cappuccino today, from scratch. It tasted awful :x
Something might be wrong with the milk temperature. darn..
Gave up unreluctantly. finished whatever is edible. lol
Tuition later.
LOVES Binomial theorem, HATE properties of circles...
so....Friday night going to Zouk.
Seriously, I m not really looking forward to.
A place which I told myself not to enter ever again.
Perhaps those familiar faces will reappear again.
Scolded my sis ytd night. Felt bad.
Didnt mean to. I'm sorry.
World behind my wall
It was down to 84 days a couple of months ago...too many things have happened since then, or perhaps I was too busy to even notice, and when it suddenly popped in my mind today, the paranoid feeling resurfaced. Time is really a scary thing. Once u lose track of it, you never know how much u have lost. I am pretty clear now, rather sober, because I understand what lies infront of me. I have taken all the risk I could all these while, if not I wouldnt have been blogging now. Facing up to reality, its silent battle I chose to fight long ago even tho I had already knew the results.
I looked at my past tweets.....
Now I ain't sure why I tweeted those remarks.
Rather ashamed at my selfish thoughts.
But I guess I did learn something recently. People are hard to understand. You shouldnt always assume u have the ability to fully understand a person. Its weird! You don't even understand your own feelings, what for trying your very best to understand others. Worse still! You meet a dead-end eventually and thats when you find yourself trapped in that dark dark world, its like a ring of fire surrounding you, u just have to resign to fate.
There were times too when I heard sad ballets; and my imagination turned dark and somber. There were certain times when my mind floated to a scene, as a spirit, watching my own funeral. Sadness flowed all over, looking over group of friends weeping, consoling each other and my love wailing all over, looking at my casket. And then I told myself to snap out of it.
I shall keep myself at home later and clean up my room.
Sometimes I am amazed that I can still accomplish certain 'mission' when i am unhappy. But thats me and my queer habit. I just want to keep my mind occupied.
I am a truthful person.
Alright, I tend to over-react and at times, leaving the person without much free personal time. I just tend to be seeking too much attention than usual when I'm reacting to my emotions.
Perhaps thats my weakness in my life.
I really tried my BEST for that last one.
But I havn't heard anything....
Nothing at all.....
I ain't disappointed; just hope everything can fall into their right place. Can they?
I looked at my past tweets.....
Now I ain't sure why I tweeted those remarks.
Rather ashamed at my selfish thoughts.
But I guess I did learn something recently. People are hard to understand. You shouldnt always assume u have the ability to fully understand a person. Its weird! You don't even understand your own feelings, what for trying your very best to understand others. Worse still! You meet a dead-end eventually and thats when you find yourself trapped in that dark dark world, its like a ring of fire surrounding you, u just have to resign to fate.
There were times too when I heard sad ballets; and my imagination turned dark and somber. There were certain times when my mind floated to a scene, as a spirit, watching my own funeral. Sadness flowed all over, looking over group of friends weeping, consoling each other and my love wailing all over, looking at my casket. And then I told myself to snap out of it.
I shall keep myself at home later and clean up my room.
Sometimes I am amazed that I can still accomplish certain 'mission' when i am unhappy. But thats me and my queer habit. I just want to keep my mind occupied.
I am a truthful person.
Alright, I tend to over-react and at times, leaving the person without much free personal time. I just tend to be seeking too much attention than usual when I'm reacting to my emotions.
Perhaps thats my weakness in my life.
I really tried my BEST for that last one.
But I havn't heard anything....
Nothing at all.....
I ain't disappointed; just hope everything can fall into their right place. Can they?
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