突然领悟

我多渴望自己是一架机器人，可以不眠不休地奋斗着。 很多时候，我们在为目标努力的同时，无意间忽略了身旁那群爱护即关心自己的家人和朋友们。就好像有一座山档住视线， 让我们无法看清方向。

周六在家里养病， 晚上复习功课，不知不觉就睡着了，凌晨3点醒的时候发现自己趴在桌上。隔天早上看见太阳时，觉得非常精神，病魔似乎已消失得无影无踪。在YIH Study Area 待了整天， 为了要把七堂课的 Webcast 看完，但是始终没做到。GEK1505 的竞争实在是太激烈了，刚收到了CA 成绩， 考了八十九分而兴奋了一 阵子， 一直到我瞄了Tutor 的成绩册，才发现自己的成绩其实只是一般， 根本也没什么好得意的。看来 Final Exam 的难度应该会稍微提高，要考个 A 必须下不少功夫了。数学系的课目总是让我战战兢兢，也许是我对它的要求总是比较高。也许是我的问题吧!

近来得知，班上一位和我非常要好的女生已踏入爱情世界， 替她感到高兴。希望她可以找到幸福，永远快乐。。。。

最近再也没追电视节目了，前几周都会在九点之前赶回家收看 <一房半厅一水缸> ，自 <荷兰村> 之后也没什么本地风味的电视剧，今年终于来了一部， 故事情节还不错，让我见识到了人性的丑陋和黑暗。 其实现实生活中，我们常常和不同背景，不同性格的人擦肩而过， 一个人是好是坏， 需要一段时间， 一些事件仔细观察和判断。就像 一对相爱的男女，双方要经过挫折才能更深刻地了解彼此，努力维系感情，很多时候说得容易做时难。

考试倒数三周，是时候开始到 YIH 温书了， 我对我自己说， 一定要把不快乐的事件抛在后头，乐观地面对未来的挑战。常常也对她这么说，人生就是一段艰难曲折的路程。 我知道最近这一段时间发生了很多事情， 非常突然， 希望她可以振作起来。

想在此借用 Avril Lavigne 的一首歌来表达心情。。。

大家一起为 Final Exam 加油!

I'm Standing on a bridge

I'm waitin in the dark

I thought that you'd be here by now

There's nothing but the rain

No footsteps on the ground

I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new

I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you

I'm with you

I'm looking for a place searching for a face

is anybody here i know

cause nothings going right

and everythings a mess and

no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone tryin to find me?

Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Wont you take me by the hand

take me somewhere new

I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you

I'm with you

oh why is everything so confusing

maybe I'm just out of my mind

yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night

Trying to figure out this life

Won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new

I dont know who you are but I... I'm with you

I'm with you

情感

今天又开心又伤感，傍晚下的大雨来的真是时候， 很珍惜。。。。。

有些时候你为某些事筹备一番， 最后才发现是多余的， 总觉得自己很笨。。。。。

糊涂的我又不小心弄丢了 thumbdrive，我也不知该怎么说。。。算了吧!

Better In Time

Song Recommendation of the Week:
Leona Lewis – Better In Time

All the way from Hackney, East London, she was the X Factor’s clear favourite from the beginning and after transcending the show, I knew she was never going to be an ordinary talent show winner. "Better in Time", fourth track on her album, Spirit, is very much the power ballad that someone being groomed for divahood might release. This number can’t really match the success of her previous smash hit “Bleeding Love” but it can again prove that she is blessed with a voice of power and restraint.

Btw, I give this song 3.5 out of 5 星星s....

Save me

Spent a moody weekend, worse one ever…worried, frustrated = (

No mood to even start on sch assignments, basically just wasted the past 2 days, I just can’t do it…

Sometimes I do miss those times in NS, where I just concentrate on my work, nothing else to worry, no one to care for….

Hope it gets better in time…

人生

你要勇敢，坚强耐心地等待，一定没事的!

人生起起落落，许多次的挫败乃是正常的交替回应。。。

人生的道路需要不停的颠簸，哪怕是跌倒也要未雨绸缪的爬起来继续前行。。。

Pampering myself

“Apple iPod” is finally off my wish list! Hah…It feels so good to be able to pamper oneself once in a while. Have been hunting for the best lowest price these few weeks at Sim Lim Sq and decided to purchase it last Sat at $3**. Bought an additional remote which was found to be faulty and had to change for something else which I haven’t decided. Spent my whole Sun sourcing for a radio remote and the hunt eventually ended at Wheelock AppleShop. I realized I have been spending a huge sum of $ on music. Actually it is one of those few things that I would be willing to part with my money. Gee….I wanna learn piano soon and I am not bluffing lor...

Hope everything goes well for her tonight... :)

Song Recommendation of the Week:
Chris Brown – With You

One of the most potential and romantic tracks on his second studio album “Exclusive”. After he topped the pop charts with his dance floor filling debut "Run It", he has not yet released a top-notch romantic performance until now. This number kicks off with strumming guitar as he pours out his heart with romantic passion. An amazingly talented dancer who can truly communicate to an audience vocally. This song is great wedding and prom song, likely to be in the top 10 annual songs for this year….

Btw, I give this song 4.0 out of 5 星星s....

忙忙忙!

Really busy these days, no time to blog, no time to sleep, no time to go out….Every morning I wake up, I will be reminded of those assignments, lab reports that I have not done. Actually, I don’t really sleep a lot and sleeping to me is just a waste of time. Yup, that’s what I always think. =D..I know people will think that I am siow, crazy ……I know it is very unhealthy to just sleep less than 5 hrs everyday, have been hearing reports abt the risk of heart diseases due to lack of rest, kinda scared. But if a person is diagnosed with a disease, it is just his destiny. We can’t control our fate, can we? So just take things easy everyday, it’s okay to joke, play around, just don’t go overboard….

Attended an internship interview with yefeng last sat at International Scientific. The boss was friendly and amicable. Probably our mistake was not to choose his company as first (It was our third choice). A bit tongue-tied when we were asked to explain why we did that. Maybe he thinks we are not sincere and enthu enough. Haven’t heard anything from the Career Centre, so I guess 没希望 le…Am going to try NEA, dun wanna depend on sch already. Sadly to say, Chem eng students would always have a upper hand when it comes to internship in a chem. industry, cuz what we can do, they can do too. Unless we wanna do civil eng work, then it is different….But dun expect Mister Lyon doing that…he wun one…

Last sat was also 张信哲's concert. Nope I didn’t go, though I have always wanted to see him in person. Can’t really spend money on concert anymore, I have spent enough, got to save money. Just hope hols will come soon so that I can start earning money….

Jiayou Mister Lyon!

Was intending to take a rest tonight and forget abt the lab reports and assignments for a while. I actually spent my whole sat churning out 2401 report, but seriously, it is easier than 2164 which I am still directionless…..I need to read up more on reinforced concrete, this mod just gets tougher and tougher. Lecturer is okay, kept on ensuring his student “Don’t worry, don’t worry!”. Yup, wait till the quiz is here. Two 2164 quizzes scheduled and the date of the first one is not even announced yet. Already week 8 le. Maybe it is just me, my attitude towards civil modules. Other than infrastructure and uncertainty, I just can’t seem the love the rest. Maybe I should learn how to love them…….

Had a “fruitful” sat. It didn’t turn up well as the event was so unexpected. Went to christine’s house to get some stuff and was stuck at the voideck cuz my car suddenly couldn’t start up. Panic! Started to call for help. Then the serviceman took his own sweet time to come and change the battery. In the end, I wasted an hr and a half just waiting for him to arrive. Anyway, hiccups like this really gave me an opportunity to learn more abt the different parts of the car and how they function. Now I know how to check the battery le….lolz….

Wanna take this opportunity to apologize to meiling, didn’t feel good to misplace her tutorial notes. Sometimes I wonder what’s happening to me this year, first is faiqah’s ext cord, then my thumbdrive, now is meiling’s notes…..Now is only March, I am just afraid of what’s coming up in the future…..*scared

Song Recommendation of the Week:
Jason Mraz – I’m Yours

The intro of this song would make u think that it is a Jack Johnson tune, I thought so, but nope, this is beautifully done by the Geek in the pink, American singer-song writer, Jason Mraz. Most people would know him from his very first hit single “The Remedy (I Won’t Worry)”. Sadly, his previous “Mr A-Z” album didn’t do that well and now he is back with a brand new album “We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things” set to release in May this year. This first single features the variations of Jason’s voice and I admit I really love the rhythm. Amazing song, the words are like poetry and his voice makes the words just float in the air.

Learn from the lyrics, do not hesitate, go for it! This song really describes my mood man...

Btw, I give this song 3.0 out of 5 星星s....

Untitled

It is really difficult to break the 'ice'...

Not everyone can.....

Frustrated, hesitating, scared... =s

Sch reopens....

Attended harmonica concert with qt on sat. Decided to ask her out since I haven been hanging out with her often ever since I entered uni, and she going to graduate really soon. The splendid performance brought back beautiful memories. Still remembered those days when we performed during syf, hehe, the thought of it just makes me feel old. Then went for haagen ice cream at Holland V but were disappointed that the waffle went out of stock (we were told 15 mins after we made our order). So funny cuz qt was really hungry. I know she was abt to strangle the waiter. lol….

Actually I have always wished to see my own classmates perform. Wangqi was part of the ensemble too, probably her last performance in sch before she leaves for France next sem for 2 years. Really amazing how this friend can cope with so many ccas and still maintain her grade.

Recently, I just realized actually a handful of my current classmates have love problems. Maybe I am that kind of person whom people like to confide in. Or maybe I am good in keeping secrets. I can’t imagine I actually chatted with one of them yesterday night till 3am, talking abt bgr stuff.

It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. This is so true……

Song Recommendation of the Week:

Simple Plan – When I’m Gone

These guys are experimenting with a dancier sound this time round. But I guess they are sticking to pretty familiar territory on this third studio album, which maybe explains the unclever self-title “Simple Plan”. Perhaps the plan for this one is really that simple. lol…okie, this single proves that they are always ready to try on new stuff, thinking outside the box when it comes to their own music. This 1st single adds a bit of funky electronic loops to classic rock guitars, crackled with edgy, funky energy and a huge poppy chorus. Produced by Dave Fortman of Evanescence and Timbaland….shiok!

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Btw, I give this song 4.0 out of 5 星星s....